Im very afraid to die, and usually this can trigger a panic attack or a major depressive episode.
Idk what to do, I just felt it coming on, just tried to lay down and go to sleep, when it hit, so im back on here trying to distract myself long enough to forget about it
Hi URCA, I had this happen to me last year.. I stopped smoking bud, went on a diet ...(Had 1 meal at 8pm per day + no drinks) took diet pills...energy drinks and body-building drinks etc... and basically dehidrated my self as well as losing 4 stone in weight.. I started by getting bouts of Insomnia...which then led onto stress and migraines... My eyes became super sensitive to bright colours, flurescent lighting and everything seemed to bright and made my eyes hurt.. then I got hot and cold flushes that would leave me sweating and shivering... and Finally it got to the depression stage.. It fucked me up and I was so scared of dying.. I still am ...But...at the time it was so intense, I would experience body trembles and panic attacks resulting in stiffness, dizzyness nausia and sweaty palms.. my confidence went down to zero.
I went to my GP and told him... I knew what I had done... I had fucked up my chemical balance and my body was freaking out. It was a very scary worring time.. I was prescribed Diazapan and some other one called citropan.. the were anti-depressant relaxents ... they seemed to help and calm my body trembles but it did'nt really help my state of mind...
In the end I resulted to self medicating, lol, not so much medicating but still... I decided to stop taking diet pills, stop using weight gainers and power supplements.. I did start eating huge meals again.. even though I had strong stomach pains and a complete loss of appertite.. Whilst on the mend days seemed to be very long and I'd find myself taking short 1 or 2 hr naps to try and gain more energy and try to focas on mending my health... I started to drink quite heavilly again.. for about 6 months.. and have now moderated everything...
Its taken about a year all in but now I drink in moderation, smoke an average amount of herbal.. enjoy 3 propper meals a day... and most importantly drink alot of water/juice drinks.. to stay hydrated! I found the dehydration and lack of food was the main cause for my break-down..and I hated feeling so low, isolated and cold. So its very important to eat and drink and expecially not to just suddenly stop your normal diet/routine as this took quite a large slice out of my fun persoanlity for what seemed like a life time!
Everything in moderation.. if you suddenly stop something your body is used to..Your body will let you know and YOU WONT ENJOY IT... but if you ease yourself on and off things your body will be ok withit and you body and mind will remain in good health.
Also try to talk in general to people through-out the day about anything other than how you are feeling...sidestep that for another 'brighter' day if you spend alot of time alone that can trigger depression and assist mental-breakdown.
I hope this has helped in some way...it helps me to talk about it cos keeping my thoughts to myself made my ever increasing imagination run into overtime..
So chin up
and thinks about all the nice/cool things you can enjoy, and make the most of your life whilst you have it... As Jim Morrison said " No one gets out of here alive" and its very true... But whilst I'am here I wanna make the most of it Cos' if you dont, Death isn't reversable.. I want to have had the best times ; Before I take my final bow and leave the 'stage'
Providing you have a good diet, and keep your hydration in check...and occupy urself with things that are good, happy and keep productive your active mind will fight away the moody blues and you'll reagain your happy persona once again
- STELTHY