But, that is basic survival. Just extend that from the top of the mountain to every day life. Don't we tell ourself things will get better? We have no sure knowlege, but we tell ourselves that for all the neccessary aspects of survival.
And since, at this point we can't follow the "why chain" to an ultmate reason, we are mostly, a lie alive. We mostly fool ourselves everyday with this set of memories, we can self. We live in expectation and regret almost totally, then we dream about it. We think others should understand us when we don't understand ourselves. Even a worm turns from pain. Is it really a wonder we lie to have some comfort?
There comes a time... for everyone, to sit down and assess what is there and what is not there.
It's hard, this life... this existence. So many things to think, so many ways to be...which one to choose?
Most i understand, want the easiest, the fastest way, they way with the least amount of pain to deal with.
When you lie, you loose a piece of yourself...only you know when you lie, and even if you hide from the truth, it is always there staring you in the face constantly reminding you, that you do not know. It is easy to hide from this, so easy to turn away, to push it away or to pretend.
I've found out that there are two types of people in the world.
Those who value and want the truth...
Those who value only their own truth (which is not the truth, it is far from it)
What is fear, where does it come from? I have pondered this thought for countless hours. I have come up with an idea that makes sense once you put the pieces together.
As i have told you all before, i understand that i don't really know anything, i merely foster ideas, nothing more.. nothing less. If anyone here wants me to go into more detail about the origins of fear, i have no problem writing down my thoughts and ideas about the subject.
I think fear comes from ignorance, fear comes from "not knowing" If not knowing is where fear comes from... it would seem natural that the scariest thing for any human to endure is uncertainty.
The people who value the truth are on a never ending journey, continuously searching. Only with courage can they get closer to the truth about how the universe works, the closer we get the more avenues of knowledge seem to materialize before us. We have gotten past the fear of not knowing, we understand that most likely we will die without ever having our most desirable questions answered... but we don't let this discourage us, it empowers us, our drive to continue this never ending search increases ten fold.
There are people in this world who allow the fear, the not knowing take hold of they way they think... take hold of who they are. Living a life based off of fear to feel fearless. Giving themselves answers to questions that do not have answers. Within these contemporary lies based off of fear they can find a sense of importance in this existence, a sense of purpose, a sense of comfort of knowing in the absence of it. Nothing we can do or say can help the fear filled, they all must help themselves, they must make the decision to not be scared anymore, to discontinue giving themselves truths in the absence of them.
The quote above (Doer's) reminds me of a story i made up in my mind once as i was rolling this fear/not knowing thought inside of my head years ago.
Imagine you are on your death bed, you are going to die. You're daughter or son at the tender age of 6 come up to you and ask you, "Daddy... what is going to happen when you die?" You have a choice to make now. Depending on the decision you will make, it will either come from fear, or love. The fear based reply; "Sweety, i am going to a better place...please don't worry"
At this reply, hopefully you have the ability to understand that what you just said... was a lie. Although this lie may help ease the pain or suffering of the one you love the most, with your last dieing breath you have lied to the most precious being in existence all for an insignificantly small amount of false comfort.
The love based reply; "Sweety, i don't know... nobody knows. But if there is anything i want to share with you before i close my eyes forever... is that its ok to not know honey, it's ok."
At this reply, you understand that what you have said is the truth. Even though you know it wont give your offspring a sense of comfort, you know that you have been honest with the one being in this existence that is the most important to you... and that i think will mean the most, not only to you but to your offspring.
If there is one thing i would want to share with everyone based on the experiences i have been through in my life, it is this one thing.
"
Honesty is the key to happiness"
"I Base the meaning and purpose of my existence on honesty with myself". -Zs
still typing strange.... I do good because it makes me feel good, I used to litter, than I moved away from Kansas didn't wanna dirty up something pretty. I stop and help broke down cars, I help old ladies cross the street or offer to help load their groceries if I see them in a parking lot with a lot of stuff, that's just being me, I don't need no stinking religion
