I'm not trying to be a dick, remember I was the first one to offer advice in this thread. I'm just really curious about this adrenaline rush you're talking about. That seems crazy, get into drag racing or something (my 2nd love, or is it 3rd?). As for growing pot, it's nothing to play around with. I smoke constantly and would spend $Gs a month. Worrying about the consequences of growing is NEVER fun. There are two reason to grow: for personal use or to make money which you say you have. So what I'm saying is the more I think about it, the more it seems like a bad idea for you. How would you even tell if you grew nice shit?