JN811
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Im just glad everyones being honest I like this thread...everyones feeling a lil bi-polar huh? wow? wats in ur weeds?
Im just glad everyones being honest I like this thread...everyones feeling a lil bi-polar huh? wow? wats in ur weeds?
Im just glad everyones being honest I like this thread...
nice post.... dont even get me started on perscription meds.. It sounds like you are on the right path I, myself am not where Id like to be in life either, but Im always thinking of how I can get there... I think you are happier than you think honestly.. at least to me it sounds that way... It sounds like youve got alot of shit going for you... maybe you just dont realize it... Plus, ur a mod at RIU.. that would make me happy!!! howd u score that position? Id love to close some of these nonsense threads I see around here....I'm actually suprised at the success of this thread.... but at the same time, its kinda expected, as i predict most americans are NOT happy with their life.... me included, so i voted sad, even though i do remember how to be happy, i'm just not fully there yet.... its work to retrain yourself from the way modern society wires you.
vansStoner, keep your head up bro... I'd wager you're pretty young like myself, (25) so its perfectly normal to be second guessing everything about yourself, despite the "law", you're still growing up....
I thought i was bipolar too... not that long ago if you dig through my threads... I got diagnosed with "major depressive disorder", and "ADD".....
I'm a young parent of two children, struggling through life and school, so i dont buy the MDD diagnosis, I relate it more to normal, healthy stress to make you do what you have to do...... and the ADD, well I guess i'm a little distracted, but that's due to a young mind full of ideas.....
we diagnose everything nowdays.... nothing is normal. you can get on antidepressants because your father died.... thats fucking stupid, you're supposed to feel sad... i digress....
after trying the meds for a minute, i diagnosed myself as being a chronic insomniac, thus leading to a fucked up mentality... so i went and got some tranqs to put me nitenite and test my theory (and kicked the anti-D's).... also think that my supposed depression, is just a product of our new, instant gratification society....
so now i'm sleeping a bit better, and making a conscious effort to change my way of thinking, and life is getting ALOT better......
so i'm happy with who i am now, just not happy with where i'm at in life at the moment; but yet again, i'm conscious of it, and making real efforts to get to where i want to be..... I've gotten past the first hurdle, which was getting my wife on the same wavelength as me, so now the easy work begins..... life's lookin up
Thats what im saying... "Everyday above ground is a good day" Tony MontanaMy life is pretty fucked up right now,I had to plead guilty to a felony and I got a bunch of bitches trying to kill me lol.But I still stay up and wake up happy every day.As long as I got money to keep my "unemployed" part of the family happy then I'll be to.I could also be dead,but im not so thats something to be pretty happy about to lol.
nice post.... dont even get me started on perscription meds.. It sounds like you are on the right path I, myself am not where Id like to be in life either, but Im always thinking of how I can get their... I think you are happier than you think honestly.. at least to me it sounds that way... It sounds like youve got alot of shit going for you... maybe you just dont realize it... Plus, ur a mod at RIU.. that would make me happy!!! howd u score that position? Id love to close some of these nonsense threads I see around here....
I'm actually suprised at the success of this thread.... but at the same time, its kinda expected, as i predict most americans are NOT happy with their life.... me included, so i voted sad, even though i do remember how to be happy, i'm just not fully there yet.... its work to retrain yourself from the way modern society wires you.
vansStoner, keep your head up bro... I'd wager you're pretty young like myself, (25) so its perfectly normal to be second guessing everything about yourself, despite the "law", you're still growing up....
I thought i was bipolar too... not that long ago if you dig through my threads... I got diagnosed with "major depressive disorder", and "ADD".....
I'm a young parent of two children, struggling through life and school, so i dont buy the MDD diagnosis, I relate it more to normal, healthy stress to make you do what you have to do...... and the ADD, well I guess i'm a little distracted, but that's due to a young mind full of ideas.....
we diagnose everything nowdays.... nothing is normal. you can get on antidepressants because your father died.... thats fucking stupid, you're supposed to feel sad... i digress....
after trying the meds for a minute, i diagnosed myself as being a chronic insomniac, thus leading to a fucked up mentality... so i went and got some tranqs to put me nitenite and test my theory (and kicked the anti-D's).... also think that my supposed depression, is just a product of our new, instant gratification society....
so now i'm sleeping a bit better, and making a conscious effort to change my way of thinking, and life is getting ALOT better......
so i'm happy with who i am now, just not happy with where i'm at in life at the moment; but yet again, i'm conscious of it, and making real efforts to get to where i want to be..... I've gotten past the first hurdle, which was getting my wife on the same wavelength as me, so now the easy work begins..... life's lookin up
true dat!i'm alot happier than i make myself out to be.... and i make myself out to be happier than i am... play with that one, but its how i feel.....
I do feel that i am doing alot better mentally than alot of my peers, but only because hard knocks is an accellerated curriculum ... but i DO KNOW where i want to be in life now, and for that, i am miles ahead of most people my age.... now i just gotta get there and not give up on it.
dude your only 18!!!! I can honestly say I am not the same person or have the same thought process as I did when I was 18..Im kinda glad too see others are experiencing/experienced life as i do. Im also glad to see others getting through it.
Im only 18 an feel like i am a fuckin freeway to failure with no exits. Im not going to school,Have next to nothing on my resume and cant find a good job and thats the only reason i could see myself joining the Army. I do not want to work at a fast food place and look back in 10 years and say what the fuck happened to my life, I just want to be successful. Maybe if i quit/break smoking weed i can get motivated to change the path i am on now.
Im glad too see you are staring to sleep better my friend, Sleep in my eyes is one of the best things in the world. Just another thing i am glad i do not have on my plate, I would hate to be an insomniac.
Starting today im not going to concentrate on the negitives of my life, But the positives. Maybe i just need to change the way i am thinking.
Im kinda glad too see others are experiencing/experienced life as i do. Im also glad to see others getting through it.
Im only 18 an feel like i am a fuckin freeway to failure with no exits. Im not going to school,Have next to nothing on my resume and cant find a good job and thats the only reason i could see myself joining the Army. I do not want to work at a fast food place and look back in 10 years and say what the fuck happened to my life, I just want to be successful. Maybe if i quit/break smoking weed i can get motivated to change the path i am on now.
Im glad too see you are staring to sleep better my friend, Sleep in my eyes is one of the best things in the world. Just another thing i am glad i do not have on my plate, I would hate to be an insomniac.
Starting today im not going to concentrate on the negitives of my life, But the positives. Maybe i just need to change the way i am thinking.
fuck yea dude! your on my wavlength! Ive decided I NEVER want to work for someone else in my life!!! I realize that from a child you are programed into this routine from the day you start school. Be here, do this... not the way I wanna live the remainder of my life. I plan to start a business this summer... btw i am getting my BA next year.. just to fall back on though..you're doin GREAT bro.... you're only 18.... when i was 18 i was about 6months out of my 2nd inpatient rehab, and relapsing on crack AGAIN.....
you dont need a "good job".... you dont even need a "good" education.... find something you like, i'd wager its NOT gonna be the military.... and jump into it.... you dont have a job??? go to college bro.... doesnt take much, they'll pay you, you get to look at/meet women all day while studying something that interests you... where else do i go with this....
maybe not for you, but its why i started back at college this year.... no other option....
or, if you have any kind of artistic talent or are mechanically/construction inclined, you can make a hell of a living with the "not so good" jobs...... nothing wrong with being a cabinetmaker... you ever price cabinets??? just an example
for me, i've determined that i'm not built for american, cubicle dwelling, work your life away for someone else society.... so my goal is to finish college, (because science is my passion) and by then have aquired our own chunk of land in the mountains, on which we will build our home and live self sufficiently.... as i feel the basic need for survival skills is becoming more pronounced, and people are miserable more and more, because deep down inside, they know that they are useless.... at least the military gives you survival skills.....
i ramble alot, sorry, i'm no counselor or obama-word-magician, but i'm just trying to convey that you're doing alright.... as long as you think you're not doing good enough, and are trying to improve, then it shows that your head is at least in the right direction..... now you just gotta get your feet there, and i dont know bout you, but my feet still move, alot more comfortably too, when im stoned.
fuck yea dude! your on my wavlength! Ive decided I NEVER want to work for someone else in my life!!! I realize that from a child you are programed into this routine from the day you start school. Be here, do this... not the way I wanna live the remainder of my life. I plan to start a business this summer... btw i am getting my BA next year.. just to fall back on though..
I really think I would be VERY happy if I could just grow for a proffession... Why is that not a legal option?!!
since i see this tread again i might as well...
NO im not happy fuck my life.....
not suicidal......
just all fucked up in the head right now.....
yall have a good 420.........