do i really have a problem?

ha i only jack it occasionally. but yeah man, it sucked so hard. i was just like, " all the things that mean the most to me are gone now!! " its soo not fair.

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and fyi for all of you. i said this in a previous post but i make music. i play guitar and sing. really well actually. im sort of well known in my city for that. i've played shows. but recently ALL of my guitar stuff got stolen. my recording equipment. everything. and i have no way to get it back :/ but that was my hobby. i really do have a lot of people that like me. like i'll see them somewhere and they will just talk to me forever about nothing. people that i dont even know do it too! but after the encounter is over, i go back to being depressed. same with going to a party or something. every time. after i leave and im by myself i get so depressed. sometimes i just walk to a public place so i can pretend like im doing something with somebody. its quite sad.

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go to a public jam secession and make friends

I found myself feeling this way for about a year. No idea what I wanted out of life and no answers to fix it but turning to medicine to fix these problems. Smoking never fix anything so dont do it to run from your problems. I made a decision to better myself and ended up in the military jumping out of planes for a living. I found that working out plays a big part of releaving stress and feeling good about yourself as well. I also recently just got back into college trying to obtain my degree and I am half way there. I think if you get into some sort of school and work on bettering yourself you'll find that you will start to feel better about yourself and sense of direction. Keep your head up, its gets better! The harder you work you will find the better luck you will have.

Maybe you need to get that girl you like to milk you of your energy lmfao.

Just a though, a girl might give you a healthy boost. That is until she rips your heart out.

she milks me plenty

I had friends that sounded exactly the same as you described yourself in your first post. Turned completely anti-social, no car, no job, no women and smoked pounds of weed, stayed high all day. You want to know what they ended up doing with their life? They joined the military. They are still in the military as I speak, ones an aerospace engineer, another an infantryman. It really did straighten them out in life. It pays very handsomely, with steady raises, they have big nice houses with brand new cars. They do not even smoke weed anymore, only drink some beer on occasions. The military can turn boys into men. I am not telling you to join the military, but in your situation, it sounds like an excellent idea. It would get you away from the weed, keep you in shape, give you lots of money in your pocket and you would be doing something with your life. If you decided to leave the military after a few years, you come out with a trade and can use your experience in a lot of jobs out in the regular work force. Thats just something to think about.