What you say is absolutely true.
You just have to realize that in order to be a part of this ... you actually have to subscribe to IT (that system/religion/etc)
Otherwise you are outside ... looking in and laughing.
I make fun of Steve Jobs and his computers .... another reason I would never buy an apple ... overpriced ....and controlled within a confined system.
Do not mistake the apple ... for temptation tho .... as temptation is a feeling .... so it is always up to you !
To act ... on a given impulse. You always make the final choice.
In terms of your demons and angels .... have you ever considered that ..... as
you are a product of a given system,
governed by the idea of
right and wrong .......
and as such ..... through your burglaries ...... you have developed a sense of
anxiety which has manifested in guilt ....... most likely triggered by a psychedelic experience.
This guilt ... is addressed with prayer ... and it works
as it soothes ... that is why you keep on doing ....praying ...
Some meditated to arrive with similar results.
Systems .... and Hallucinations .... whatever works ...