I've lost my mind...

It's so strange..
By legend it says that another Buddha will come again when the world no longer holds buddhism. The Dali Lama has told that he believes there won't be another Dali Lama. By legend it says that there are three buddhas, the one that brought Buddhism to the world was the original one of Intelligence; that is he gained Enlightenment through intelligence. By legend it beholds that there would be another one that would gain this wisdom through effort, but wouldn't be able to teach others.
I can't explain it all because my job doesn't contain memory. I must ask the Little One what I can't remember off the top of my head, for he records everything in the form of picture-memory.
 
When I sit down to meditate and visualize the world for how it came to be and how it continues to be. I don't need to close my eyes, the knowledge just flows in like a river flows with a sea of fish. Each fish representing a truth in the world.
 
even if you have lost your mind i dont think the weed, laced or just incredible should be blamed for your state of mind. you said your self you may be autistic and say you have multiple personalities that control different parts of your life. i think you should take these problems to a psychiatrist and not to a forum. sory if that sounds like a dick thing to say, but i mean theres little anyone here can do to diagnose/treat or advise you on mental ilness.

but i do know where your coming from. i know someone with autisum and hes always stressed. i think he feels like theres things he cant do because hes (just)a little slow and creative but cant get his creativity out.
 
I'm really scared of what I will become in 10 years. I don't think of the future in terms of months away. If I act and think this way now and everyday feels as if I get further and further away from what I was, I'm very worried about the way I will act in a year from now let alone a month.

I feel like I'm going crazy.
I don't think I am going crazy.
I feel like it, like everybody around me as a certain expression for the way I present myself--Crazy--on my face.

I notice another face in the mirror at times now. His eyes are sunken and there are bags underneath the bottom lids. The lids are scrunched togather, the muscles around the eyebrows tightened in an concentrated, almost angry expression. Visible lines and indentations surround the fat pockets around my eyes.. It's not that though which causes me to look crazy. It's that in addition to my refusal to remove my wisdom teeth, which has caused my the front of my jaw to protrude out slightly, but slight enough that the bottom section of my jaw extends inward just slightly, but slight enough that it agapes my lips to reveal slightly crooked but otherwise perfect teeth.
I don't reconize him.
 
Hippie....
You sound 99% just like my ex's brother.....
Her families genes share very strong tendency to form mental illness.....

But it's nothing to be afraid of my man :blsmoke:

Your mind/brain is suffering a chemical imbalance that needs to be rectified.

Drugs can sometimes bring on the condition, but not necessarily always the case...

But you must see your doctor and tell them your symptoms and what you are thinking, and they can simply prescribe you the medication to 'even' everything back up...:mrgreen:

Dont fear, and dont hold back because you think you sound crazy or think they are going to put a straight jacket on you..... because that is simply not the case....

People take this medication every day and lead very normal lives from then on....

It is imperative that you do see your doctor, if you choose not to... your mind will start to deteriorate even more and can cause irreversible damage if not treated....:neutral:

You will be back to you yourself in no time;-)
 
Jimmy Luffnan said:
Hippie....
You sound 99% just like my ex's brother.....
Her families genes share very strong tendency to form mental illness.....

But it's nothing to be afraid of my man :blsmoke:

Your mind/brain is suffering a chemical imbalance that needs to be rectified.

Drugs can sometimes bring on the condition, but not necessarily always the case...

But you must see your doctor and tell them your symptoms and what you are thinking, and they can simply prescribe you the medication to 'even' everything back up...:mrgreen:

Dont fear, and dont hold back because you think you sound crazy or think they are going to put a straight jacket on you..... because that is simply not the case....

People take this medication every day and lead very normal lives from then on....

It is imperative that you do see your doctor, if you choose not to... your mind will start to deteriorate even more and can cause irreversible damage if not treated....:neutral:

You will be back to you yourself in no time;-)
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yea what jimmy said lol:bigjoint:
 
HippieMan said:
I was born with PDD-NOS.
It means I have a pervasive developmental disorder but its not otherwise specified, which includes a-typical autism, personality disorders like childhood schizoprenia and multiple-personality disorder.
In many ways people think I am autistic, in some ways I have slight autism, in other ways I have full-on savantism. I think there are more than one of me, though.
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YOU ARE NOT CRAZY :)

its the way it is, your not the only one thats you... :)

cheers :eyesmoke:
 
HippieMan said:
You know those little specs of black, red, and other colors when you stare at one point for awhile? They usually appear in your peripherals and at the center of your vision.
The other day I imagined all of those little spots to make up little sections of a calender which I could visualize infront of me personified as the little specs. I felt like I had the savant splinter skill of instant calendar recall.
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All you need is more (or atleast 1) friend. .... Your lonely, Get a friend. :peace:
 
HippieMan said:
I'm really scared of what I will become in 10 years. I don't think of the future in terms of months away. If I act and think this way now and everyday feels as if I get further and further away from what I was, I'm very worried about the way I will act in a year from now let alone a month.

I feel like I'm going crazy.
I don't think I am going crazy.
I feel like it, like everybody around me as a certain expression for the way I present myself--Crazy--on my face.

I notice another face in the mirror at times now. His eyes are sunken and there are bags underneath the bottom lids. The lids are scrunched togather, the muscles around the eyebrows tightened in an concentrated, almost angry expression. Visible lines and indentations surround the fat pockets around my eyes.. It's not that though which causes me to look crazy. It's that in addition to my refusal to remove my wisdom teeth, which has caused my the front of my jaw to protrude out slightly, but slight enough that the bottom section of my jaw extends inward just slightly, but slight enough that it agapes my lips to reveal slightly crooked but otherwise perfect teeth.
I don't reconize him.
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Just go and say your going to kill yourself already.... Stop all the drama, get to the point kid.
 
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