I'm so sorry and I understand the frustrations you are facing. I wish you only well. Best of luck finding peace life is not easy.im on dissability i have problem witch im sure use hav my now gathered i dont think ill ever have a legit job i mean i suxk at growing weed and whats the point o get a good life aint free but u know i wasent put on this earth just 2 work but i dont think i could last a day without telling somebody to fuck off or down right not be able 2 do the job i couldent handle embaresing myself like that i wish i could just grow all my own food and hunt a little and explore but ye i pretty mutch just come on here every day and listen to music n tryn figure this shit out sucks ass having tje mentel problems i have never been able 2 get any real help get put on all tjese meds that did fuck all tell em weed is the only thing that works and now ur in tje same class as meth heads n shit o well i gues im just gunna have 2 ride this shit out n find my thing