cheeers mate , appreciated. yeah, i've been thru this before, to be totally honest i've been at it since i was about 14, its probably fucked up more of my life than anything else( hence the dark sense of humour i posses), i'll stay off it for a few months and then be ok for another few and then go fuckin mental and blow it all up again. its a kinda pattern i've gotten used to, only difference now is i've got a kid( just turned 1 last week) and so i'm seriously thinkin bout the future, ive applied to go back to uni and i'm planning on giving all the dealing up after my next grow. i'm gonna stick to growing and selling weed but i'm gettin the fuck outta the class a game, its too much jail time now and with the kid i just dont want to do it any more, it wouldnt be fair on him, i dont mind being in jail but it creates havoc for everyone around you, so i think i gotta start gettin organised.step 1 ; stay sober.