I Used To See Auras

I have had these experiences all my life, being told I am more intelligent than average. Having super intense deja vu or even premonitions. I suffer from several psychological conditions none of which I take meds for. At a young age my parents and particularly my grand parents took an overwhelming interest in the working of my mind always asking me what I was thinking about and if I had a head ache, I would always rest my head on my hand. I have always had a sense I knew what was what, and where things went together. Being a natural problem solver, people told me I would do great things with my life. When I went to church my minister always told me that I should become a preacher because I had a gift but as I got older and began to rebel the church he confided in me that it is not what I would want with life.

Despite the majority of people saying I was special, I denied it and convinced myself I just wasn't stupid. Through school I never had problems, though I never exceeded expectations. I don't recall purposely getting thing wrong, but I do know I would just not answer. When I was in grade one we had daily spelling challenges, you get one right you get candy, I would sit by myself spelling the words to myself, refusing to answer, repeating to myself that " these kids don't know what is going on? We are here to learn not for candy." Eventually I began to walk with the herd, I forgot about my intuitions and started to just react. I had a flawed view of the world and couldn't see that I was no longer impartial. I began to be happy, basically becoming ignorant to the world.

Around this time I started to become aware I was having visual distortions I couldn't account for. I would see tiny globes and snow in my vision, the only way I could describe this is I saw atoms. My one close friend said he saw them to, to this day I am still unsure if he did or not. I used him as a question seeker and told my parents that B was saying he could see atoms, what was wrong with him? They just said he was seeking attention, so I kept it to myself that I was seeing them to. Basically keeping a secret for my whole life.

I continue to see them, though had forgotten about or even gotten use to them. Now though I get intense distortions, like it I am staring at something concrete like lined piece of paper, the lines warp and push on each other, then I can just snap back to reality. Sometimes its scary in the sense that I feel no one will understand, but then I feel like I have something that no one can ever experience.

Currently I am diagnosed with GAD, HPPD, DPD, and schizoid typal personality disorder, none I see as a burden, besides the excessive worry.

On a side note I was in the shower and started to think what if we could develop drugs that are classified as sympatheogens, or in other words they give you an experience that you can sympathize with another about. Anyway any others out there.

Peace

Wild said:

How could describe the process of connection? A calming of the mental process to all surroundings, with a direct focus on that person? Perhaps providing a warm headed feeling when aligned?

The colouration sounds similar to the hues used in polarized light detection tests, not saying you have the rare ability to see polarized light however.

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I too have been plagued with being smart... high IQ, belong to MENSA, its all gay shit...
I wouldn't say that I feel warm headed or calm to sensory perceptions. I'm doing what I usually do and people will literally flash their auras....

Seeing polarized light would suck balls!!!

And no, I was not on any drugs... the first occurrence occurred when i procured my 7th birthday or something like that... my parents were taking a group foto of my sister, brother and I in front of a dogwood tree. We threw up the one sign and my dad flashed a white aura. Unfortunately, I never asked him about it.

Wild said:

CAPD therefore reduces the sharpness of one important sense, a reduction of auditory identification may have increased you're vison/other. Just like the fact that i've had little to no sense of smell (olfactory) from birth, yet I (think of myself) as having improved auditory and visual perception.

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CAPD is strictly a neurological defecit, and I believe dem put it into the same category as ADD and ADHD..... But I can dig your concept of sharpening another sense by lacking another. Unfortunately, I don't read lips like my mom does and every audiologist test says that I have above perfect testing.

Mr.KushMan said:

On a side note I was in the shower and started to think what if we could develop drugs that are classified as sympatheogens, or in other words they give you an experience that you can sympathize with another about.

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BAHAHAHAHA yeah brother I dig it... I know people that used to get that intense distortion thing you are talking about... breathing is key for them. One person said they have cured everyting from something called pranayama.

edit: we could put these sympatheogens in the water. no mind control just heart control!!

^^Paranada??

Yeah, fuck lsd, we is going to drop some feel-like-at-a-circus, or some jumping-out-of moving-cars and finish that off with some professional-proctology. Haha.

Peace

Mr.KushMan said:

^^Paranada??

Yeah, fuck lsd, we is going to drop some feel-like-at-a-circus, or some jumping-out-of moving-cars and finish that off with some professional-proctology. Haha.

Peace

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HAHA for something....

i agree though fuck dem' lsd. paranada is a yogic technigue, it looks pretty interesting if you wanna learn - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pranayama

You know its kinda interesting, the young brain has many differences from the older brain...... there is actually a cellphone ringtone that adults cant hear, only children under the age of 16 can hear it, maybe it has something to do with that? in my youth there was alot of weird happenings that i couldnt understand, i think it has something to do with our brain aging or the differences of how we use our brains when we are young (havent been conditioned yet?) i think youth allows us to use a greater percentage of our brain power, but we were so young we could not understand what it meant or how to focus it correctly.

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You know its kinda interesting, the young brain has many differences from the older brain...... there is actually a cellphone ringtone that adults cant hear, only children under the age of 16 can hear it, maybe it has something to do with that? in my youth there was alot of weird happenings that i couldnt understand, i think it has something to do with our brain aging or the differences of how we use our brains when we are young (havent been conditioned yet?) i think youth allows us to use a greater percentage of our brain power, but we were so young we could not understand what it meant or how to focus it correctly.

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I agree with this. Specifically its the most before you go through puberty and after that it gets less and less.

You can think back with memories when you were young and try to remember how you were and thought, but its impossible to really remember and feel what it was like without actually feeling that way again.

This is interesting because Ive had drug experiences in the past, namely on marijuana and psychedelics where I could think like how I was a kid again. I remember during the experiences the feeling and remembering it was how I felt when I was a kid. Impossible to explain in words.

Not sure the exact reasons but Ive heard that youre brain is actually at its healthiest and strongest when youre a kid and goes further and further away from that as you get older. Also as we get older we become less and less "pure" with all the toxins that enter our body, bad experiences, physical and mental illnesses progressing, etc.