Random Jabber Jibber thread

So I have a messed up story to tell.

About a year ago, the university where I work, in my department. My department head and a supervisor hired a friend of theirs for a carpenter position. This dude can’t read a tape measure or level, doesn’t know the difference in any kind of screws or nails . He’s really terrible at the job……well today he was murdered , him and his brother. I don’t know any of the details yet. I don’t know what led up the event’s this morning but damn. You never know when you are going to take your last breath.
 
It took about 16 months for my life to stabilize after my mom passed and I sat in one spot 18 hours a day for most of that time after the shock wore off and depression kicked back in.

Two weeks ago I went for testing on a suspicion of having ADHD thanks to an Imgur post, a random Imagurian and friends saying they thought I already knew.

Testing confirmed that I could be on the spectrum and I opt'd to try a low dose medication. I'm an addict in recovery and this is a huge deal for me. My favorite drugs of choice were speedy uppers and they wanted to put me on an Amphetamine. I didn't know if it would trigger me, if I was pre-triggered thinking about it and I was/am scared I'm going to relapse.

I'm two weeks into taking my new medication. I've missed one dose and I've gotten more done around the yard than I have in the last 18 months. I'm trying to stick to a close schedule for dosing myself and I feel I might be able to manage this new life. I stood in the middle of my yard and looked at all the work I've accomplished and thought; "Is this how healthy people live? Can they just think of doing something and then they do it? Can this be my new normal?"

It just might be and I did a thing to my F250.

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Now its time to get back to growing.
 
Kalebaiden said:
It took about 16 months for my life to stabilize after my mom passed and I sat in one spot 18 hours a day for most of that time after the shock wore off and depression kicked back in.

Two weeks ago I went for testing on a suspicion of having ADHD thanks to an Imgur post, a random Imagurian and friends saying they thought I already knew.

Testing confirmed that I could be on the spectrum and I opt'd to try a low dose medication. I'm an addict in recovery and this is a huge deal for me. My favorite drugs of choice were speedy uppers and they wanted to put me on an Amphetamine. I didn't know if it would trigger me, if I was pre-triggered thinking about it and I was/am scared I'm going to relapse.

I'm two weeks into taking my new medication. I've missed one dose and I've gotten more done around the yard than I have in the last 18 months. I'm trying to stick to a close schedule for dosing myself and I feel I might be able to manage this new life. I stood in the middle of my yard and looked at all the work I've accomplished and thought; "Is this how healthy people live? Can they just think of doing something and then they do it? Can this be my new normal?"

It just might be and I did a thing to my F250.

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Now its time to get back to growing.
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Hang in there.
 
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