You speak as if you know
anything about me or my life, very odd. I certainly don't blame you for being envious, though - I live a GREAT life! A wife that is ten years my junior and an awesome person, my darling dogs, financial stability (and then some), a funky old house that I recently bought and have been tinkering with, my hobbies, freedoms, etc.etc.!
You, on the other hand, are a miserable, hate-mongering, internet troll that only exists to try and make other folks as miserable as you. Sad, that.
Your life of poverty, endless dead-end jobs, and desperation
should be something to be empathized with and even pitied, but your racist/vile/envious/toxic self is far too repellent even to merit that.
Before your impending ban from this fine site, you really
should give some serious thought to intensive therapy or possibly 'other options'; you are negative energy to the tenth power and the world's already got a surplus of that.