Godamn guys..... I don't mean to be a downer, or to get into personal shit or anything like that. But I just don't have anybody to talk to right now at this moment in time, and can't really anyways because I'm at work. I just need to get some things off my chest.
If you feel like reading it awesome, go ahead, but if you really don't give a fuck that's fine. I understand. This isn't what we creat grow journals for, but fuck man...
-So I wake up this morning. It's my birthday, I'm 23.
-First thing I do, just like everyday, open up the closet to say goodmorning to my girls. ([I sniff] Ahhhhhh, my fav smell, right when they wake up]
-Right after that, go to my other closet in the living room, check on the girls in the veg box. Good morning there too!
-I get dressed, brush teeth, ect... before heading to work.
-On my way to work, I text my girl (just like everymorning) saying 'good morning my love' or something to that extent. She text me back 'Hey babe'
-I find out, by means of my girl, that my roomate has been texting her over the past day and a half... Here's his text's to her. (Oh, and he's been trying to get me to break up with her ever since we first got together. Telling me he doesn't like her, to stop talking to her ect... ect... We aren't techincally dating right now, but have been for the past 3 months, I'm just waiting for her untill she can get some things together, staying faithful, because I want to be with her, and she wants to be with me.)
-My roomates texts to my girl go as fallows:
"I'm not testing you, I'll honestly come meet you right now to prove I'm not"
"If I was testing I would have done it long ago, before we ever realy talked" (They had a talk about me last friday, in our appartment while I was there)
"I mean is this a mutual feeling?"
"I felt it was easy to talk to you and talk about how I felt to you it was just really refreshing"
"Honestly after that talk Friday night I just um totally wanted to kiss you after lol"
"I promise Brittany. I'm not lying I haven't told him about this and I won't"
"Lol ok on a guy boxers or briefs lol"
Me and her still kiss and do all the BF/GF stuff. We just don't have an oficial title anymore, my fault, untill some things just get resolved. I still want to be with her, very very much! And her with me! I'm pretty sure I love this girl, and I've never been in love before. But hers is the only face I want to wake up to every morning, and it puts a smile on my face, getting to see her's as the first thing I see when I wake up, and alst before I go to bed. And if that's not love, well then I dunno what is.
Background info about my roomate, he has a few different women over each week. To fuck and them then tell them to leave and he plays his video games. He's a player at it's finest. Fucks and dip's out. Always.
Lastnight you want to know what he was doing?
Last night, he was hanging out with me, drinking MY beer, smoking MY weed, texting MY girl behind my back, and chatting and being all cool like nothing's goin on... I don't even know what the fuck to do. I'm so utterly pissed off at him. My girl would never do anything with him, ever!.. So I'm not worried about that. That's FUCKED UP THO MAN!
How can he be fucking telling me to get rid of her, stop talking to her, get her out of my life for the past 3 month's. And all the sudden HE goes after her..... What the fuck should I do.
Oh and the way he got her number. Your gonna love this. After they had they're talk about me last friday. Which BTW she said was a good talk. He sent her a message on facebook saying "Hey I'm glad we got to talk. If you ever have any problems with (My name here) and need to talk here's my number.
And she, not knowing him like I do, thought he was actually just being a nice guy and helping out. I actually thought he was being a nice guy, and trying to help me out when he and her talked. Because all he said from the beginning is "I don't want you to get played" "I don't want you to get hurt" and shit like that..... Yea FUCKING BULLSHIT...
Trying to save genetics and revert it to veg?
Exactly!.. You've probably read about it before, but if you clone a budding plant, when it roots and reverts back to veg it shoots out 50% more branches. Then you can just get shit loads of clones off her! Or flower and have a monster yield. I think it's called something like 'monstercropping' or that's waht I've heard anyways. It's pretty sweet man!